#71
November 1, 2010
I wish I could convince myself that it isn’t worth it. How do I juggle this fantasy of love with my fantasy for a future? I wear his shirt to sleep and during the day because I can’t bear to be apart with him. A random movement might send molecules of his scent colliding into my olfactory sensory receptors. The binding of the ligand triggers a G protein coupled secondary messenger cAMP pathway amplifying an innocuous event into a heart wrenching feeling. I haven’t been able to translate love into chemical signals yet, but if I continue to pursue both paths simultaneously I believe I will find easy diffusion between the two, much like the action of the ependymal cells lining the ventricles which serve as the barrier between the cerebrospinal fluid and interstitial fluid located in the brain.
