#65

Life’s To Do List:

-Plan out MCAT prep/study, and med school application (timeline)
-Get G1. Learn to Drive. Pass G2.
- Start saving money for car/house/kids.|
- Be Picky. You deserve it.

#52

Friday, December 25, 2009, sent via FutureMe.org
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Hey Girl,

It’s Christmas Day. You’re lonely, uninspired, lacking motivation and feeling very unproductive. Good thing is that you’re not wishing for a boy to come whisk you away, at least not with the same intensity as you did in the earlier years. This letter is the product of a slow wireless internet connection, you are waiting for the movie the Dreamers to load. It’s messed, but the spontaneity chains you in its revel. Patience you are still in need of. Are you doing well in school? Are you nicer to those around you? How’s the social phobia going? Have you found a fuck buddy yet? If this is sent to 4 months in the future, you will be doing well in school, and maybe a fuck buddy. But the rest.. who knows. You’ll be 19 by then, does going to lounges legally give you the freedom you wanted? Is that boy who rejected you in the palm of your hands? Unlikely, and it sucks doesn’t it? Are you happier? Probably not. You hurt people, stop hurting others. Was boxing day good? Questions.

Since exams have ended I felt aimless and unproductive for about a week, wherein I spent moping around after a boy. Yes, a new boy, a little bit more than a fuck buddy, and no he hasn’t whisked me away from anything. It is better now, I can cull more of my urges, still not enough to stop myself from sleeping over, thus disrupting both our sleeping schedules. Am I happier? |Generally so. Doing well in school? Comparatively. Still waiting for the 2.5 credit marks to come out, as of right now 3.26 cGPA, average. Going to lounges does give me the freedom I wanted, but I haven’t been in a while and this is due to the money issue, which will be resolved soon as I do have a job. Now my main priority is to do well at work, I have a handful of research papers to read for today. The plan now is to watch a little bit of how I met your mother, sleep for an hour or so, do some reading, and then see Vlad.